what I crave most in this cold and calculating world
is the freedom found in intimate expression
were this the turn of the century I believe with
Dr. Freud I would require a lengthy session
he could give me a fresher point of view and possibly
some hindsight
I would gladly welcome for my current direction
then I wouldn't feel so laden down by my unaccountable
perplexity
perhaps I'm just another foolish empty soul
looking for some positivity and perfection
yet only stumbling onto negativity
with my fine tooth comb form of inspection
if I can ace this primary ponder and come out the
victorious party
I should find my appetite for mastering my mind
and emotions is indeed quite hearty........
(written Jan 8,1992 pm)