I'm being assailed by an unfathomable amount of self
doubt
even though my horizon has alas broadened still about
the heart there is a slight pinch and a pout
why me? why not miss plain Jane Smith who lives a
house or two down the street
how ironic though that in this fight I've just now won
up until the end I thought I had been beat
I'm not exaggerating when I say I'm more than just a
little scared
my soul to the entire continent I have lain none to comfortably to the ground and openly bared
for this very thing I seem to have much too much
style and flair
to think, just a mere few days ago I wouldn't have
even considered taking on such a dare
but to have a talent for writing
and never have the chance to be equally read
now, to me that just isn't fair
everyone gets a little something out of their lives
so what, if one or two along the way get or take a
little more than his or her share.............
(written Jan 7,1992 pm)