I was just recently informed that I underestimate my
own personal appeal
If I had been notably warned then maybe now I could
recognize the difference between what is and is not real
some wounds I do so believe in my very core were never
meant to heal
such wounds dealing with such a strongly tender organ
we do so fret as we feel
I shroud myself to protect what is so fragile within
I uncloak small glimpses of my sleepy soul with the aid
of the gentlest and most understanding pen
still a love so lonely and yet unborn
yearns for a mate to hurry its inevitable release
what I work so hard to possess and perfect rarely if
ever gives me even a remote moment of peace
this craft I so carefully cradle yet crudely caress
gives background to the bravery I must put forth
against subjects I am asked to address
I make way through a world so cruel, cold and bare
In my on going quest to find kind spirited souls
beneath bodies of strangers for which I could come
to easily care
I know I am mistaken when they glance back and blankly
stare
just as I know I am indeed 'lucky' alas when their
beauty within with me they attempt to share
these lonesome travels I make are worth much more
than any possible request of in transient fair
for you see, even when I journey out cold and alone
I return not as just one but part of a pair
and not just one pair
sometimes but many pairs
for you see, he who truly cares enough to write
deeply cares...............
(written Nov 25, 1991 pm)