down the path of before driven nocturnal
I have let myself be foolishly lead
if I had known then what I do now
without preamble from myself
I surely would have fled
but how can one hear something in one's heart
that's never strength to be said
surely the soul can't feel sorrow
when the sensibilities have been abruptly bled
moving so fast through life
harsher lesson winds have cleverly in the right
direction managed to turn my head
leaving me feeling truly blessed for having not been
emotionally marred or dead
so much of myself I have left behind on the page
to be carelessly read
I've always ended up answering for though
whatever it is I've done in the past or said
from a stone fool surely I have not been bred
yet its my own eventual outburst and range that I
dare say I dread
my character faults of a modern day poetic tyrant
I do not wish to provoke
for on many of my hate filled self blows I have
the tendency to choke
I shutter to wonder if to another time and or place
I could have been cut down to be made to fit and
belong
leaving me now to sound incomplete like words sung
without the warm embrace of their sweetly remembered
song
perhaps that is where what was once so right
went so wrong
the remembered and rightful essence of my deep
inner self
for that I truly long...................
( written Nov 19,1991 am)