you don't know just what I would do
or how I would conspire
to get as close as next to you
the object of my most personal desire
and in my heart there does burn a wild blazing fire
that grows further out of control as each night begins
to fade and expire
I love the gentle wickedness of your mouth
so deliciously mobile
and your gentleman's way of aiding a lady in distress
is not short that of noble
perhaps I love the essence and vitality found in your
apparent youth
when I speak of you my beautiful male
I speak only the absolute truth
I feel my heart has taken hostage my usual logical mind
so it can continue on with its fabulous romantic schemes
it does not seem possible nor kind that the only times
I've fully loved you has been in the wanton desperate
arms of my night's wishful dreams
you must somehow forgive me for such an unorthodox form
of love's sweet chase
but to your great sense of fairness know that I pledge
my heart even as I plead my case
since I don't know just where I stand with you how can
I know my position in your life or proper place
if you close your sky filled eyes and look with your
mind's eye beyond the lids you'd see what could so
easily be
you'd not only see true happiness just to the side of
your current existence but an eager and lovingly awaiting me
if you don't open your heart you can never expect to
fully and emotionally see
In every forest you'll not find exactly the same type
of tree
know that in my constant motion of emotional change
you always remain my never ending and unbreakable rock
I care not the differences in our ages
in respect to any other s clock
even as I fear the nearing end
I sill without reservation drape my desolate soul upon
your so very generous spirit
for your fire always seems to grow hotly fierce
as I, in attempt to warm my sweet sadness
step quietly near it............
(written Oct 13, 1991 pm)