how far it seems I've traveled on such a short yet
bumpied road
looking for exactly who knows what or whom
but to grace my lonely little abode
I once had myself a lovely prince of a man to call my own
but before my guileless eyes he turned into a stone cold toad
I thought at twenty I knew all the right answers to love's big question
but my system shut down when I neglectfully let it over load
and now as I listen to my memories yet spoken out with breath in my
lungs so shallow and quick
I now sadly realize how he fooled me with his quick
lightness of heart trick
I know the words they are like my best friends in the
subtlest sense
I am able to increase level and volume in writing of thought
where others fall far short of being dense
this is my special way of getting the essential part
of me back
its hardest for myself to understand but still I keep
the preface up by keeping personal track
I hardly recognize what few talents I genuinely have
I'm only able to quickly point out what I lack
to have such a grand mind yet a lousy short term memory
you see, I can't see the vastness of the forest
but for all of just one pitiful tree
don't worry your head much though over what it is
you don't see
because that last comment doesn't make all too much
sense either to method minder me..........
(written Sept 17,1991 pm)