I miss you beyond tomorrow
why I miss you even beyond this very day
I miss you in waves of perfect sorrw
that are all remarkable for me
out loud
to even say
I stand nearly lost
almost inert in fact
humbled in my very own losing
and all within a month's time
even though I have gained so much
insight and perspective
for me you are everywhere
yet nowhere
you are that vaguest little touch
my soul remembers again
its longing for yours
of this I would bet my next unguarded breath
and yet in such peace with knowledge
this is where the full body of the sorrow
accumulates
meeting you like this
secures in my heart
an awful bittersweet knowing
how better can I share the shear magnitude of
this revelation
I shall one day indeed hold you
my dearest again
even if only upon and through the passage
of another vessel's death
as ever I must do
just what my soul so full of love
instructs me to do
love you
be with you
again
onward
through
some day
after tomorrow can find her rest
for me no more......................
(written May 21, 2006 545am)