I've been left alone with just my own company for
for comfort once again
yet I can't release myself from the 'me' I've
more than once before been
as I grasp for balance in my so unstable life
I trip over this instrument known more commonly as
the pen
which I've also upon many occasions labeled 'my wife'
I'm trapped within a heart that gallantly beats back
my last betrayed memory
I see the sharp shadows of my soul as a possible key
strong, confidant and as yet emotionally unbruised
a perfect witness to my not being myself so I ask that
my questionable conduct be quickly excused
if this idea has come to me riding on the tail of a joke
I'll hardly be amused
am I to forever be swamped in my own out look and
aging attitude
I can almost smell my lust's sweetly laced breath
and frankly the odor is quite crude
my watchful wit at the moment leaves me behind
in a writer's dust cloud of debate
a lot of self doubt along with moderate talent is
divvied out to those who take up the initiative to
create.............
(written Jan 25,1992 am)