when I start thinking that I'm not going to make
it through
this death like slumber that's befallen my heart
I close my eyes and strain to focus my hungry love
on you
you out there alone
somewhere in your neck of the world
taking control and or care of just whatever needs
to be done
keeping much of the negativity at bay
as you pray for a fresh start
and blindly, stubbornly believe that there's
someone meant for everyone
you too look but do not see me
when opportunity knocks
the door will be unlocked and swing wide open
the light will cascade upon us everywhere
and together we will end this
alas that which feels like unasked for servitude
and begin again revitalized and all a fresh
building a lasting love life like interlude
with but the combined discarded rocks left behind
from the paths we've traveled too long alone
before
up until now
note that these weary words declare themselves
solely yours for any future taking
just like their sentiments writer
can I be any more plain in speaking my most
secret desire
its you
just you
minus all the hoopla and dreams.............
(June 30, 1998)