how do you gently tell someone that you don't really
love them
is it possible to extract all the pain and humiliation
out of the subtle message you wish to send
and who's to say your new beginning isn't someone
else s drawing to an end
there's no clean cut way the two can possibly blend
how can you help fix a broken heart when you know
you're partly the reason it can't seem to mend
there is no acceptable nor pain free excuse which I
can hide behind now or continue upon which to depend
so down off my high horse of e'lite emotional standards
I have to somehow find it in me to descend
all I can do for now is hope you'll soon be alright
to love again
and pray that because I couldn't give in to the lover
in you that I don't have to give up the you I hold
so dear to my heart as a friend
I know this must hurt you deeply when I say this
but I must
you know love isn't love if one of us has to pretend
and only after I know for certain that you're alright
will I be able to draw up my conscience reigns and
be on my way again...........
(written Sept 4,1991 pm)