COUNTERFEIT AFFAIR

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how do you gently tell someone that you don't really

love them

is it possible to extract all the pain and humiliation

out of the subtle message you wish to send

and who's to say your new beginning isn't someone

else s drawing to an end

there's no clean cut way the two can possibly blend

how can you help fix a broken heart when you know

you're partly the reason it can't seem to mend

there is no acceptable nor pain free excuse which I

can hide behind now or continue upon which to depend

so down off my high horse of e'lite emotional standards

I have to somehow find it in me to descend

all I can do for now is hope you'll soon be alright

to love again

and pray that because I couldn't give in to the lover

in you that I don't have to give up the you I hold

so dear to my heart as a friend

I know this must hurt you deeply when I say this

but I must

you know love isn't love if one of us has to pretend

and only after I know for certain that you're alright

will I be able to draw up my conscience reigns and

be on my way again...........

(written Sept 4,1991 pm)




Author's Notes/Comments: 

about a crush Wren had on me!

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