how can I forget the promises I foolishly and fatelessly made
so long ago but only yesterday
to a tall handsome darkly arrogant rancher
by the surname of Wade
how can I forget the piercing penetration of his bold
embodied star
the way he ruled my love and life with the finesse held
only by that of a seasoned player
in his far away like the sky eyes I see emotions
close to which that I heedlessly dared
I could have lived forever with the cold aloofness if
even just once he showed me he in the slightest cared
how can I forget the breeze the wind kissed my feet
as he carried me to a place I've never been
yet would repeatedly love to retreat
where now are the straining ears that used to
listen so patiently for his deep quiet footfalls
on the stairs at the end of a long cattleman's day
and how can I forget that I lived twenty-three years
before I knew the man was to walk my destined way
I look for the answers but only fall short of the
head long journey into heartache
maybe my thirst for this long tall cool eyed rancher
will one day be slaked
God knows over this ordeal my hands through my much
too mussed hair I have endlessly raked
I'll try to forget this languish lust and dusty desire
that I feel for this meat and potatoes man
but I'll constantly know that my efforts are only
faked
maybe not to my memory but to my heart this pensive
poem I have emotionally angled and alas successfully slaked................
(written Aug 5,1991 am)