he said we're not brother and sister but your blood
runs through my veins
your thoughts run rampant through my head
you're the oasis at whose feet I collapse after
slogging lifelessly across the emptiness of the
dry desert plains and know that without your love
surrounding me
I would be emotionally dead
and because I love you so I will never have to walk
alone ever again
for where I abruptly leave off you are there
to take my place and begin again in my hopeful stead
I'm not wholeheartedly sure whether or not for
anything there is such a thing as a complete cure
but in my eyes everyone stands far off behind you
out of focus in the background's blur
and the difference lays in the fact that I loved you
during, still now and beyond death where as I for
only the briefest glimpse lovingly looked at her
hate me because I have admitted for a moment my loins
did begin to stir
but don't make me live my life without you because
of this
for that I could not endure
you believe for love to truly work that it takes
more than the simple pairing off of two
so many complications we have yet to face
now isn't that
and not my natural male impulses
the general issue
you can't be bothered by my needs and reservations
now isn't it just too damn bad that I can not be
exactly like you
so trust me
you will
for a long time to come
recall this conversation...............
(written Aug 29,1991 am)