at the sight of gently falling rain
a single tear rolls down one chilly soft cheek
the beauty of the moment witnessed in the mirror
chokes me up so I can hardly write or speak
to be mysterious is considered terribly trendy
but to love so desperately that it swallows you up
whole is position wise much too bleak
this penchant for multi-perplexion is beautiful
while standing from the side to witness its peaking
though whispered words of potential encouragement
isn't exactly what I'm single handedly seeking
all the splendid gorgeousness surrounding this
current situation doesn't take away from the original
fuss
handling such deathly silent waves of loneliness
on a regular basis indeed for me has turned out to be
an actual plus
I can taste foul flavors of dissatisfaction
to the point of complete and undeniable distraction
my one true inspiration is my very own pleasure and
personal heartache
I won't divulge the name of my confidant and soul mate
simply for the anonymity of the party involved sake
this shaky feeling of unease
is the hardest I've ever had to try and shake
in the unstoppable path of what must be done
I won't stand in its wake
acting like nothing is ever wrong requires a lot of
practice while standing in front of the full length
mirror alone
you see, I've never really been into digging too
deep beneath the surface until you meet the essence
of the shell and stone
I dig only just a little bit
with slightly curious hands
just enough to see the outer limits of one's true
inner beauty
there I stop to bask and bathe in it.....
(written Aug 25, 1991 pm)