he's much too wildly attractive for my tolerance level
I would have far better luck in the attempt to tame the darker side of the devil
love could easily pas through him with but a single unpunished breath
leaving in its wake little or no apparent trace of its ever having been there,
let alone left
obsession is almost too strong of a word to try and
describe what it is about him that grips me
sometimes I feel I was sprung up on his life like a
woman without a country
or a romantic's idea of a gypsy
mistakes can easily be made but its one thing to make
them and another to have them up and walking around
why though when I catch his eye across any crowded room does my heart so painfully pound
with his mature man's body that any woman would die to witness the unveiling of
my mind and heart now argue over whether it was lust or love
can one truly fall in love with the likeness of one's own desirious dreams
or is it as impossible as most doctors and psychologists say it seems
does the mind not recognize the subtle blunder in
dealing with the ideal version of difference
maybe the mental aspect is the safest way to go so it would there for hold higher preference
lush feelings of languor dance lightly upon the fringes
of excitement when he's near
making even the most obvious to me seem so completely
unclear
in their spellbinding attempts to dazzle and further
insight
emotions imagine themselves as physical planes of immortal magic and take foolishly to flight
an in the shower of the unhoped for aftermath
it is I who is left with the job of filling the void rejection left in the path
so now I chalk up one more scar upon the body/board
of experience
and try to never forget there hasn't been anyone like him before or since
and remember this final blungeant blow to the fragile ego does away with any past, present or future pretense
into my heart just be thankful you only got a tiny glimpse.............
(written Aug 20, 1991 am)