otherwise occupied by senses commanding me to
go forward
not yet knowing what my goals are aiming me
toward
when realization comes to head I believe I'll be
fully prepared
into the glacial orbs of what's yet to come
I had to down cast my own eyes as back at me
they shockingly stared
and who is to say that visual aid is solely for
the hearing impaired
falling behind even as I get ahead of myself
is so often a current affair
when I let down my guard the light of suspicion
remains on
it continues to burn even when away with myself I
am surprisingly gone
it monitors every reaction of any emotion
put to even the mildest test
wider than you could ever imagine
I am just that when I am at my best
when I cry
tears drown out all sensible thought and
leave anger in their wake
you must give me right of passage as I push myself
beyond the channels of acceptability
and pit myself against my eternal spouse and rival
prosaic
without adequate inspiration I am left writing alone
and lost in the dark
the success I've so far achieved could be no more than a repetitive occurrence of an outrageous lark
in me you would find no mental fire
if it wasn't for the hint of a tiny creative spark
and do note
one day indeed, my words you will mark.........
( written Aug 11,1991 pm)