love, the single most pleasant illusion
filters through thoughts of displeasure
with its gentle intrusion
there can be only one reason responsible for this
confusion
I am lost yet again in my decadent yet deplorable
delusion
so I must hack carefully away at this unkillable
internal bad seed
for the healing process one can only wish me God's
own speed
love and hate off each other they equally feed
it hurts knowing that people like me come in only
one pure form of breed
tenacious is one way I have so often been described
to stop this unnecessarily ache
my very own soul I have bribed
though, like it or not I have to take myself as I
am
whether I be an animal activist or the son of Sam
to those who don't choose to wish me well
I say let them be damned
and send them all to hell
without one's mind what good is the hand
I've rambled on now so, that I'm not quite certain
of my position or place
yet with not knowing quite how
I've gained a lot of strength as I lost a good
deal of face
in one's patience, there's room to be proud
through the verbal fields of daring discredit
I have successfully plowed
to the very end, I've left myself open
to unfavorable censure
because you see, I don't look at life as a
small contract with God
I see it as an all out bloody grand adventure
of the spirit.....................
written Aug 8,1991)