the claws of wounded vengeance
have sunken themselves into my my skin
leaving me feeling ill at ease and inadequate
yet again
since I last successfully wrote
I don't know how long it has been
I'd like to discontinue this particular process
of self elimination
but as yet I can't quite say when
many a better man than I before has walked down
this path of self destruction wearing much thinner
shoes
these eyes to my inner soul stay wide awake
and follow my many mistakes everywhere they choose
to move
this fascination I have to acquire the clearly
unattainable
is if anything at all, its at least debatable
I cry for the sad little girl deep inside who so
desperately wants to be something better
she tries to break free of my destructive strong hold
but I refuse to let her
fear isn't really fear until its full blown and felt
often in he past , at its feet of superiority
I have humbly knelt
perhaps along the way I came up a little short on the
making of the ultimate sacrifice
but eventually everyone ends up wanting a little
piece of Americana
even if its only one small slice
but for everything we do wrong or otherwise
there in lays a price
which usually ends with our demise........
( written July 28,1991 pm)