Like I have no real choice in the matter
I venture far into the game
and nostalgia forces me to see that I will never again
be entirely the same
just what brought me to this professed point in question
and why has my senses failed me in such counteractive
yet subtle succession
there is no gain to be made in any even remote form of
regulated regression
so perhaps I would be far better off if I just dropped
such acts of dwindling depression
I've come so close many times to that thin, pebble
painted line
maybe it wasn't an excuse I needed but more so a sign
telling me not to get out simply because you
probably can
instead let every last thing go when it gets too close
to the fan
when it comes right down to the wire and you are left
with nothing more than your grit and gall
perhaps its better to see just what you say instead
of saying what you saw.............
(written May 22, 1992am)