a hotness like breath steals over my nerves
an omen of sorts it solemnly serves
I breeze by laughter's grandmotherly embrace
for it is not humor of now I wish to face
a memory pounces upon me as I make my way innocently
inside a threatened thought
while mesmerized by its horrific beauty I am bloodlessly
caught
my usual pale skin grows even paler as the tragic truth
tiredly emerges
adrenaline triumphantly kicks in and the fear strongly
surges
words wordlessly fall far behind truth in its timid tale
yet they jump to my undeserved defense when reasons of
unknown origin part ways and separately fail
they each together point out obscure obstacles in
fabrications cold crimson domain
all these grim blurry visions I am seeing are
imaginings devised by a very sleepy, uncertain brain...
( written Sept 12, 1992 am)