INDISCREET FIRE

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JOURNAL#4

wanting to be faithful to another human being
is an attribute
but being faithful to yourself takes genuine guts
for every door that manages to open en route
for you, another one often shuts
feelings so intense leave me thunderstruck and
mute
what causes such a trauma to take place
this I constantly dispute
I find refreshment in the changing expression
of term often used
over how the mind can recycle an idea
and make it more so dear
I am greatly amused
I've pulled myself out of the main stream and
set up house in a temporary cage
in which inside upon myself I inflict radical
measures of rage
to me everything falls below the cliff of
beige
and know that these are not the wisest possible
words to come from a most emphatic sage
If I discontinued digging holes in my mind
I would hamper my poetic success
for the many uses found for one's pain
I am unbelievably blessed
I am clearly conscience of every emotion I feel
I know myself so almost witlessly well
that it's nearly unreal
popular opinion is the seat of much misinterpretation
but I am an amateur who props up the pen with
little or no reservation
public poles have little impact on a poem's
presence and duration
at the moment I am satisfied with what I've
aspired to create
now from my frivolous thoughts I need a long
relaxing vacation.........
( written July 7,1991)

Author's Notes/Comments: 

struggling through the minefield of thoughts and poetic expressionism.

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