pieces of me
reaching for you
scattered ideas of vague happiness
lay limp all askew
the map of your heart
blotted by its own loss
churlish was your behavior
excusable my frost
trust, a loaded pistol
pointed directly at my heart
a play upon reality
miserable odds
at such pity's table
could bankrupt why even regret
a veritable tragedy
owned by my own inability
to set the record straight
my understanding committed suicide
as well
this morning
when you callously admitted
you couldn't be bothered by my
ridiculous woman's needs
you sneered that I should take a
pet lover
I thought well when I divorce you
I shall
and a rich thick anticipation of such
great pleasures to come
fueled my anger's speed..............
(Feb. 4, 2000 5am)