I became a cartoon
in theory
Micky Mouse would have been proud
a sweet dappling of light
busied itself on my thigh
trees along the shore line
danced gently
to the graceful water's edge
making polite conversation with
the wind
as they moved passed the sand
I was immobile
a pale dressed coconut
holding loosely a forgotten drink
a tall glass
held in a tall woman's trembling hand
seeing her life as it really is
discarded
one moment unmentioned
I saw him kiss her
like I use to long for Him to kiss me
we will divorce now
and without him ever knowing
that I saw that little rusty knife
he slipped into my heart
my pride at least I will not allow to
be destroyed
how come it hurts
this finally fully knowing
its completely over
when that's just what I've been wanting
for more than two years now
I suppose it could be because reality is
not quite so perfect
as the idea of it...............
(March 6, 2000 230pm)