I kissed your loving lips but I obviously kissed them
too hard
for now you are crawling about on the rejection laden
floor
lost like looking for the first key tarot card
spiritless death nearly becomes you as you tirelessly
search
though I never once truly loved you which for now
the very same you my heart has started to lurch
poor man! is it solely my fault that I was/am unable to
love you the way a man deserves to be loved
in retrospect though I ponder should I have for warned
you that every touch I attempt was/is through a hand
and heart so cleverly gloved
so, tell me, just what would be appropriate in the next
contest of mutual attraction verses forbidden conversation
and why is it that the only yet squandered emotion that
comes to mind now is the intense, pounding aggravation
assure me that we will miss not again the moment that
fails to comply
and please hate me not for misunderstanding an emotion
I did not feel
but in my failure to at least once again try
to obtain a semblance of something almost tangibly
real..............
( written Jan. 16, 1993 am)