you love me
of this
I am quite certain
and with a purity of spirit
that would likely take my breath
away
if I were to know the full magnitude
of its undarkened force
this is not hopeful thinking
at work here
but first
such mentioned love
must be allowed
and so far it has not
this label we use
called friendship
has commandeered our quick
silver thoughts
and lead us down many an enchantably
sweet avenue
of such fluxuating discoveries of self
and spirit
why, I alone know your best secrets
well except one
still
we have the laughable guts to call
ourselves truly honest
without any of the highly coveted most
true emotions to freely express
why then the joke itself becomes the
two of us
in effect
and yet somehow
still
I don't seem to have it in me
to laugh
why do you think that is
and if you know
would you truly tell me
Why, I would tell you
I love you
'Honestly'...............
(May 17, 1999)