bitter rival
spurned disregard
magnificent doubt
hail storm of endless
mishap
where is the coup
in such shattered feelings
as self doubt
blemished self contempt
tips over the cart of shaky
discontent
streamers of sadly upset
realization
detail tears
that water down these pent up
screams
true friends scarce
men with sooty caps
pose as people I could have
sworn I knew
it hurts beyond imagination
when one learns
that just isn't so
much too loose in this
windless vacuum
I sail
crushed
for so long
that the loneliness
sees my eyes
when it looks in its own
mirror now
as I see nothing but
a breathing shadow
oh, hold me so true
sweet dream
even though you can't yet
know
how so very much
you are longed for
by me
this once so very bright
parachute
with yet
no sky.............
(Feb. 16, 2000 945am)