I have lived on the lip of insanity
longing to know reasons
knocking on such door to intimacy
knocking ever knocking from the inside
and knowing not which way it is I knock
pity me not though
indeed
for only upon my stumbling backwards
such as I have
did I find
what it is I am looking for
reasons
all the more to believe
God walks with me
his heavenly perfect hand
ever upon
my slouching searching shoulder........
(written march 14,2005)