all my sweet lonelies
eager flesh comes pounding out
a salt less ocean
crashing upon no true shore
mental snapshots singed by tears
memories reconfigured
one fraction of a vaguely recalled feeling
at a time
absorbed by 'The Beckoning Night's Wishes'
I make love with the past
for the present is a joke
and I fear a future that may not want me
as I am
weak
meaningless
rarely thought of
self pity is such an ugly cloak
to wear..............
(March 19, 2000 2am)