torrents of such great sadness
futilely held at bay
flickering images
in my pieced goods mind
tells me I'm not really so very
insane
the weight until lifted
shall pound upon my
shoulders with its lumbering
discontent
a hop scotched life style
pulls me together
even as it tears apart my
misappropriated affections
boulders hold such grand interest
for me
as their massive size and
intimidating edges
represent a large remainder of my
current life
I find I miss what I can't have
and have what I don't miss
I am an egg that's too raw to eat
yet far too foul even when cooked
the in between makes me wait
endlessly
windless in a port of raging rain
crying for my season
that's yet to arrive............
(written Feb. 18, 2000 10am)