this one is for you and you alone
my dear Mr. Jones
you're not as stone hearted and unapproachable as
your title intimidatingly bemoans
I have every reason to continue on as if I haven't
been
living for yourself and maneuvering
carefully around others I've been told is not
necessarily a sin
once again I'm put in a situation I'm not likely
to win
pain, my usual mistress she's with me in one form
or another all the time
so she'll likely be my esteemed escort once again
you always seemed so much older than your physical
years had you placed to be
of all the lessons you attempted to teach me
I'll always remember you quietly telling me
its better to be wrong and make it into a right
than to simply just be
goodbye is one of the hardest words in the English
language to fully comprehend
but I simply don't have it in me anymore to
selflessly step back and passively pretend
I know to you I've simply been a mere afterthought
you find yourself pulled into an unplanned
situation in which you can't find an easy way to
get yourself uncaught
for me you obviously feel a tiny twinge or two
of butterfly attraction
I may not readily show it but for me Mr. Jones
you have been a lively and sweet distraction
thank you for not exposing my apparent crush and
making me feel lovely and warm again inside
it isn't so easy to try and not love you
but I would like you to know
since you were my friend
I really truly tried
written Aug 27, 1991 am)