MR. JONES

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this one is for you and you alone

my dear Mr. Jones

you're not as stone hearted and unapproachable as

your title intimidatingly bemoans

I have every reason to continue on as if I haven't

been

living for yourself and maneuvering

carefully around others I've been told is not

necessarily a sin

once again I'm put in a situation I'm not likely

to win

pain, my usual mistress she's with me in one form

or another all the time

so she'll likely be my esteemed escort once again

you always seemed so much older than your physical

years had you placed to be

of all the lessons you attempted to teach me

I'll always remember you quietly telling me

its better to be wrong and make it into a right

than to simply just be

goodbye is one of the hardest words in the English

language to fully comprehend

but I simply don't have it in me anymore to

selflessly step back and passively pretend

I know to you I've simply been a mere afterthought

you find yourself pulled into an unplanned

situation in which you can't find an easy way to

get yourself uncaught

for me you obviously feel a tiny twinge or two

of butterfly attraction

I may not readily show it but for me Mr. Jones

you have been a lively and sweet distraction

thank you for not exposing my apparent crush and

making me feel lovely and warm again inside

it isn't so easy to try and not love you

but I would like you to know

since you were my friend

I really truly tried

written Aug 27, 1991 am)


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