PostPoems Be Artistic. Be Creative. Be Inspired!

Inside myself I feel my very own presence

I can only hope this concept to be appropriate

for one to doubtlessly understand

my structured ideas of what is a must

and what is excusable

hold the highest precedence

that is something of which

only I can take full action of

if only with fleeting command

in my fevered soul

I feel the poignant poetic flow

at tested times its excitedly high

yet in other unexplainable instances

it's exceedingly low

into my seasoned circuits I attempt to

carefully reach

my tireless need for self expression

through guarded means of the written word

I relentlessly beseech

the opportunity to take this moment

to suit my vibrant need

this chance I must seize

to the locks of the severest soul there can  

not be many adequate keys

the pride of self contained worth in theory

is serviceable but slight

can anyone with any real aptitude conceive

my carefully constructed plight

I have this nasty tendency to take on

the defeatist's attitude

that throws a monkey's wrench

into my already matted life

like an unexpected change in mood

I reorganize once threadbare thoughts

in my head

so to make myself better

upon the sheets of life

know that I am no inconsiderate spineless

bed wetter

I have once again murderously managed to put

my mental house back in order

but as I close this out I wonder how long

before once again I cross the

"I don't understand myself anymore!"

border.................

(written March 21,1991)