If I could walk away from this emotional standstil
I would
but I'm not sure if I'd ever be able to find my
bearing from that of which I previously stood
my imbalance is once again up to its haphazard
standard of no good
my face of dire despair I must pin a smile upon so
to hopefully hood
does one ever truly learn
how can I turn out any and all my inner concern
why are the answers so blackened and blurry
is it safest to distance myself from such
consumate worry
along the step stone path of tender misgivings I
must scurry
my brow is furrowed, my heart half hating
as it tells me to please do hurry
what will I find on the other side of this out
dated destiny's door
a way of life I can atone to but in it possibly
even a shallower emotion I will only deplore
my mind retreats in absolute fear of what
tomorrow for me has in store
but that is more common the case
in any fearful skeptics core............
(written March 19,1991)