PostPoems Be Artistic. Be Creative. Be Inspired!

tactile treachorous tears trail to the tip of my

horror stricken face

they crawl cowardicely out of hiding

to rival harsh reality in misused misery's place

in vigorous battlement with rage and desire

I lose what little ground i've gained to fear

and its infuriating sire

I am completely alone at present

with only my dreams and thoughts to keep

loneliness out of my methodic mind's sight

believe me when I say the experience is not

wholely pleasant

I only slap back at my prone and paralysed skeptisism

in shocked spite

left to my own defensive devices

I rarely fail when confronted with the severest

of all crisis

I hold within my self the tools to repair what I

know is broken

this eager pen is my gamesman's champion and an

improved proffered token

it hurts when I am unable to set my grim self

straight in my writing mode

my mental too often spills over into my physical

in a  mean attempt to grip me sorely and to

guiltily goad

the mental pain can be agony while the physical is

only slight

but know sometimes in the period of enquiery

for far better understanding one can all too

easily one's valuable insight

like in dream clouded memories my mind does not

always recognize what it sees

it misinterpret the form and labels it void so it

can move on to the next

when this occurs my inner self counter crosses

its own will

leaving me outwardly rigid and perplexed

so I am the one who must come across with the

correct equasion so to satisfy both agrivated

hemispheres in rapid and unhampered haste

and somehow settle both selfish sides equal to the

middle in the over indulged scandalous sanity

where all the problems were originally based

note that I alone must do all this deep within

once again without any knowledge to the fact or

opposing emotion slipping passed my gentle carefree

and humor masked face

this is a degree in great difficulty that I

acquired long, long ago at a very slow and

painstaking pace

with my very own presence you see, I feel I must

always myself grace............

(written March 14,1991)