my mind is tortured with fatuous and febrile sessions
of turmoil
mentally speaking I claw myself in attempt to recede
and recoil
with a single insensitive sentence my future
happiness you have managed to bring to an aggravated boil
why of all the plans we had made together was it this
one you had to spoil
of all the bashingly bludgeon blows to my so very
strong and lasting love
I believe this to be the one to cater to the final
and heinous kill
I have to admit even in my current ill repressed state
you did so with the utmost immoderate skill
my traitorous tactile tears continue to fill my eyes
and spill
in this hatred, anger and guilt
there is love lingering about me still
one day soon, I'll clean house so to speak
and bring my mind back into my control
and lay claim to my once stress laden wounded heart
which you so long ago stole.............
(written Jan24,1991)