all creature comforts set aside
what travels with me what a troublesome task
to take on so I must decide
my HEART
an over rated organ
I think I'll leave it behind for some other
poor hapless fool to find
if he in turn abuses it I won't really mind
he can't do any worse with it than what I have done
so I would be wholely better off by leaving it
with him instead
your thoughts exactly
I know you see your mind
I just read
you know me so well
it takes a lot out of the soul
with all that ugliness to veil
LOVE
where I am going I won't be needing it
I'll only need to be quick on my feet
razor sharp and completely fit
JEALOUSY
Now that can be completely thrown out
of court
those dark feelings and any others of similar
sort
where did "it" and others like it get me
verbally in in bed neck and neck
naked and shaking in front of the blatent
enemy
I suppose I should clean out my drawers of MAJOR
INADEQUASIES and SELF DOUBT
toss everyting into the garbage
all of it
or there about
should I keep my well honed SELF PRESERVATION
TACTICS
yes, I may as well
they may help me to score a perfect "10" in my
various verbal gymnastics
what about my knack for the overly absurd
oh take that too
it could come in handy Finelli do be most
assured
NO, NO, Not another word
I know I'm damn close to losing all my
brain pressure
who cares when a writer such as me
stops a crazy jumble of sentences like this
leaving the reader feeling like he just got
himself a ten dollar word induced
labotomy................
(written Jan 17,1991)