I am practically ignorant in this current
state of mind
my poetic litany reveals this to thy reader
in kind
people seem to listen when I choose to speak
of honor hope and pain
my eclectic words seem to reek
when this talent/curse leaves my hand
you will have witnessed my full remorse
but for right now stay clear of my wicked
and weary course
be I sitting in my darkened abode or standing
laughing wickedly in an immobile elevator
you will at last come to the glorious conclusion
I am a lover not a hater
does my hand hold a steady flow
now as it is growing light
my thoughts run rampant with no real safe place
away from my haunted soul to go
when in doubt I choose not to pout
from my massive verbal arsenal
instead I spout
when I am hurting I lash out
in nasty verbal candor
never think that to my many inadequacies
I wish thee to pander
I shall now close up my weary dreary brain
fall asleep right here in this bed
where many times before I have lain.......
(written Dec 30,1990)