I have a new lover
he's sweet and meaty
and frankly as a lover he cant' be beaty
he's carefree wild and an egg head at times
he makes me stop short and think before I spout
off my next lines
he speaks quickly and quietly
and I'll hear his words forever
he makes flight of fancy seem a realistic
endeavor
his presence and humor strike a harmonious chord
in me of laughter and utter surprise
he makes me feel lovely new born and vibrantly
alive
through his eyes I see myself in a soft and
fashion less way
knowing that in the end I don't have a hefty
piper to pay
I can't eat I can't concentrate
my sleep is not the best
when I finally fall into my bed
I dream of the
I do not rest
I love him in my dreams many times and more
how does one step out of a dream and walk
through reality's door
on what basis is the concept of love made
when you can't make someone love you
love is given freely
not earned nor paid
my analytical thoughts become scattered in utter
disarray
sometimes I just want to throw up my hands
and say, " Oh what the Hey!"
what marks the beginning of the beginning of the
end
and which of the two does my mellowed out mind
choose to comprehend
let me think this over
and I'll have to get back to you
ah, let's say in oh, an eon or two......
(written Dec29,1990)