MID AUGUST JAY

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Jay, Jay!

what can I say?

Don't even think to be afraid

I won't divulge any mistakes that you've made

you're sweet in every conceivable way that truly

counts

but you live and breathe in a body that's simply

too young for me to even propose to pounce

you know it's not a crime to be so young

look me in the eye

don't tell me so hoarsely that you love me

with your sweet head so humbly hung

I feel this incredible hunger for you

but I know from experience that it will soon fade

every man must eventually lie down in the bed for

himself he so foolishly made

know now that for you alone at this very moment

a hundred emotional dragons I have single handedly

slayed

but I must entrust your future happiness to another

in exchange for a chance to join others in the world

in their own May/September conspirator's crusade

five years is quite a big gap when you're eighteen

and I'm twenty-three

I just hope that one day for the decision I made

that broke two hearts for it

you can somehow find it in yourself to forgive me

meet me one day in September

for that is where you my love I wish you could be

and I could always remember

Now, I know why I never cared for the month of May

simply because it was too handsome and too,too

young for me

Just like Jay..............

( written Aug 26,1991 pm)


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