Jay, Jay!
what can I say?
Don't even think to be afraid
I won't divulge any mistakes that you've made
you're sweet in every conceivable way that truly
counts
but you live and breathe in a body that's simply
too young for me to even propose to pounce
you know it's not a crime to be so young
look me in the eye
don't tell me so hoarsely that you love me
with your sweet head so humbly hung
I feel this incredible hunger for you
but I know from experience that it will soon fade
every man must eventually lie down in the bed for
himself he so foolishly made
know now that for you alone at this very moment
a hundred emotional dragons I have single handedly
slayed
but I must entrust your future happiness to another
in exchange for a chance to join others in the world
in their own May/September conspirator's crusade
five years is quite a big gap when you're eighteen
and I'm twenty-three
I just hope that one day for the decision I made
that broke two hearts for it
you can somehow find it in yourself to forgive me
meet me one day in September
for that is where you my love I wish you could be
and I could always remember
Now, I know why I never cared for the month of May
simply because it was too handsome and too,too
young for me
Just like Jay..............
( written Aug 26,1991 pm)