here lately I seem too tired or preoccupied to
write
perhaps for pushing myself so hard
my mind is getting back at me in vengeful spite
then these fantastic thoughts come at me like
a rabid mad hatter
and onto this dirty scrap of paper
words start to splatter
feelings like colors burst forth with
break neck speed
poetry is a most delectable prey on which I
ravenously feed
what a brief and bloody metaphor to use
some cringe at the stark and horrific words
in which I choose
though its been a few days since I've last
written
with paper and pen my mind and right hand
are truly quite smitten
writting is an outlet for me
a great release
until I have something signifigantly completed
my mind is not at peace
the cogs in my head are starting to wind
passionlessly down now
after a page or so of writing I have finally
managed to become relaxed
and at promised peace somehow..............
(written Jan 29,19991)