so much missing
versus
so little you
what a contrast
my heartbreak's finest hour
every sad love song
bemoans my complete failure
to even remotely understand
'This Loveless Now'
that's been thrust so cruelly
upon me
my eyes reveal my waning spirit's
disenchantment
I can see you still in everything
yet I feel you less and less
now in nothing I do
fear plays its favorite farce
of torturing my usual pretty lips
into a disbelieving tremble
just where have you gone
besides far, far from my love
these tears know nothing more
than how to fall
in un spared unison
violently mistaken
from the death mask of my hope's
fading eyes
and dribble miserably upon
these cold hands that expose to
you my shaken despair
was I never nothing to you
and if I wasn't
when did I become just that
less than nothing
just a distrustful stranger
who's hand you wouldn't even willingly
upon introduction choose to shake
don't you at least owe me that
even the new you that has no obvious
conscience to speak of today
I think would agree...............
(Jan. 29, 2000 245am)