burning at the back of my mind
is the flame of guarded intent
yet, just upon what
I am not so sure nor certain
perhaps forever
but perhaps not
all I know is what it is that I do not know
which is everything
and nothing
all at once
climbing a top the peak of such dilemma and
straddling life's small but indifferent reality
I am faced with little else but my own fretted fear
and gasping hope
both gaining edge force momentum
ready to fight over me at every turn for a chance
to win in the hand of love's sweet freedom
freedom to feel
freedom to touch and drink with my thirsted eyes
of the one whose mouth and love I covet so
freedom to breathe in to my damaged lungs deeply
the scent of my lover's challenge
to think of leaving this only home I've ever truly
known
'Leave It Not Now But Soon!'
cries the near desperate voice from within
for one day his will be the only one I wish to ever
make haste to return to
the only one I will ever care to have and keep
our beloved home, so filled with love and bursting
with 'The Forever Kind Of Promise'
wait, my darling love, for I'll only be
but a moment longer.......................
(written Aug 25, 1993 am)