I miss you in waves
whether tidal or miniscule
still they come
water fortresses bearing down on me
in great and small rushes
guided by that cocky moon
yet
in this conflicted moment
I know
its your soul
that is such moon
but only for me
and were it not for death
tomorrow could not hold over my head
such an unfair fee
death of my own
in exchange for
eternal peace of mind
well then
I think today I will carry
my little jar of tears
just a little farther on
as I have great use yet for
such vehicle as
this divine life
even if it must be lived
without my you
ever the wonder
there
among the clouds
of my aching heart
Melissa
(written March 21, 2004 320 am)