its not fully known (even to me)
why I choose to express myself this way
many times I find myself caught in a wind storm
of words and they demand that I put to page what ever
they wish me to say
some would be quick to step up and pronounce this to
be some divinely blessed gift
but who can really say?
maybe they are right and over this blooming knack
I seem to possess I shouldn't become so miffed
after all, I'm not so very special to be blunt for
my own accord
I've been introduced to no grand form of recognition
these passed two to say three years nor received any
worth mentionable reward
mind you, not that I am looking for any such piece
to only collect dust
where it would be placed upon my mantle's shelf
you see, I do this strictly for me
and the constant conflict that takes place within
myself
perhaps one day these words that I so love to scribble
down will give to another at least a good read
but all I care for now is that it seems to fulfill
a deep self repressed need
on no other will you ever find that my personal opinions
I try to push
I only care to whisper of my wonderment at the sight of
the inner strength found burning like the Biblical
bush
at myself over such stretched to the outer limit explanations
I often groan
for most times I tend to write for the simple love of
doing so and that reason alone...............
( written Jan 6, 1993 am)