the glass in my hand has fallen and found the weakness
it needed to break
since the door to the last chapter of my life has
closed
there are no more subtle inquiries as to why left to
make
I know I should attempt to do nothing more than simply
move on
nor should I try to steal from yesterday the glory of
its pending dawn
so much has crossed itself within my soul's fast
emptied shell
giving me almost full even if wrongful reason for
believing I've yet completely waked through this
emotionally mine laden hell
in this carefully concealed cavity of singular self
defeat
implosion of scattered self esteem occurs when two
opposing forces chance a moment and dare to meet
surely inner balance isn't just an option offered only
to the well deserved or ever so elite'
if this is actually so then why can it not be equally
dispersed from the local corner of my yet to be
repaired street
I easily admit I can usually make myself out to be
believed there for half the way understood
now, if only I could build up from the bad to make it
as useful as its counterpart of what is considered
good
then I would be far better off than any other average
bob
it may be a difficult long and tedious ting to do
but I feel I'm up for the job...............
(written April 20,1992 pm)