grim repose
face peeling plaster
of misguidance
fitful now is this keeper of myth
some truths are kind
to keep themselves hidden
a eulogy sings my conviction
tears fall to no available goo
reality brutally severs a toe off
hope's tender foot
there are no more songs to fall back on
just thorns of obstinance
slicing up my heart within the silent thicket
the murder of a personality has taken place
yet no law can be called in
to serve up any justice for such a heinous act
I must maneuver again in chilly waters of
unwanted familiarity
that shark of contempt
swims around me in inevitable hunger
waiting
just waiting
to further devour
even more of my fragile dreams
the safety I felt I once had
slipped into the abyss of careless detachment
where once stood
a so beloved husband
now lurks a shadowy figure I am unable t recognize
unlikable and always blaming
yet never himself 'Ever To Blame'
oh, how I wish he had not disposed of my
beloved Satya
I'd give anything to have him back
and not this thing standing now before me.......
(written Dec. 10, 2002 715am)