over you I will no longer fret
and this meeting made laughable
as the inkling I had became but a dribble
upon my heart's wrongful sleeve and all from a
careless misdeed
not even a full lie and I was rather intensely peeved
how funny it is that you draw such a reaction from me
your cavalier way and self distancing behavior lead me to believe I was no more special after all
but a passing glint of fancy
dismissed so easily from your thoughts as a night of harmless play set aside in your mind no doubt
with the buzzing opportunities of the latest dawning array
so we can be friends still on that level
nothing has changed but I feel that we lost some incredible steps of a deeper connection
we could have taken as such together once so beautifully along such a rocky way
but smooth gentle sailing it seems is not to be in the cards for us
but note that I shall enjoy the jab and parry we seem to so naturally engage in and maybe one day the joy I first arrived upon you too will encompass and more fully understand
for people like me are fleeting for one such as yourself to be meeting
as a lot of shallow immaturity you must endure to get to such soul's so deeper wondering every the which way
I'm over the conflict now I see it for just what it was a mishap that got out of hand
so let us move on that is if you still want to and see what paths we can take for if such journey together (even from so far away) is meant to be then I will admit Well, I'm still game
so let us play at the making of such tentative relationship (if indeed it can even be called that) as I wholely welcome your own words with open eyes!!!.
(June 22,2000 745pm)