DEFUSION(metaphysical)

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JOURNAL#24



                                                                                                      



over you I will no longer fret

and this meeting made laughable



as the inkling I had became but a dribble

upon my heart's wrongful sleeve and all from a

careless misdeed



not even a full lie and I was rather intensely peeved



how funny it is that you draw such a reaction from me



your cavalier way and self distancing behavior lead me to believe I was no more special after all



but a passing glint of fancy



dismissed so easily from your thoughts as a night of harmless play set aside in your mind no doubt



with the buzzing opportunities of the latest dawning array



so we can be friends still on that level



nothing has changed but I feel that we lost some incredible steps of a deeper connection





we could have taken as such together once so beautifully along such a rocky way



but smooth gentle sailing it seems is not to be in the cards for us



but note that I shall enjoy the jab and parry we seem to so naturally engage in and maybe one day the joy I first arrived upon  you too will encompass and more fully understand



for people like me are fleeting for one such as yourself to be meeting



as a lot of shallow immaturity you must endure to get to such soul's so deeper wondering every the which way



I'm over the conflict now I see it for just what it was a mishap that got out of hand



so let us move on that is if you still want to and see what paths we can take for if such journey together (even from so far away) is meant to be then I will admit Well, I'm still game



so let us play at the making of such tentative relationship (if indeed it can even be called that) as I wholely welcome your own words with open eyes!!!.

(June 22,2000 745pm)


Author's Notes/Comments: 

the deconstruction of a misread relationship.

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