preach ten year
a rage
born of such incredulous words
a near masochistic mind fix
in the making
advantage gone unheard
moments shuttered in silence
bliss bathed in tarnished opinions
a little happiness wrung out
of another's tears
I'll never have you
not like I had him
completely
but this love is still love
no matter how similarly different
I can't fault you with that
only aspire
to more fully enjoy you
physically and emotionally
while you are here
which is something
I was never afforded such a pleasure
to do with him.........
(May 11, 2000 12pm)