with attentions fractured
many a thought did indeed
get lost in the jumble
the peeled back petals
of this gracious admittance
bravely bloomed
and remain thus so
ever the apparent same
I LOVED DEEPLY
where others before only USED
perhaps that is what made him believe
me to be so ultimately special
once anyway
his profound self witnessing to the soul
pouring outward from within
untempered love
generously shared
in hope filled tandem
but sadly with an unforseeable ending
whipped about and cracked back in to the face
of the giver
with brutal half truths lain in the wake of rejection
the end sought us both out fast
and in such furious despair
blessedly we were able to walk away
limping but readily alive
still, I sometimes miss all that exchange in our
romantic fumblings of disfunction
and beyond all the darkness of that
I miss aspects even of you..............
( written March 18, 2007 4am)