its amazing
really
what one can see
when you close your eyes
tendrils of misfortune dance
blatantly revised
average becomes so remarkable
in the hindsight of one's formal
dismal cries
such experience takes precedence
over lust's spirited price
respect reigns supreme
as tears dry to stain
glasses twice now removed
where could my deflated heart be
if not with you
forgotten and swollen on the beach of
life
timid in my wasted woo
your hand no longer in mine
your heart never was there
now it would seem
misplaced yet again
tears drip unchecked
upon my fast shrinking dream
now
all but a sad memory
of a thought to be you
pathetic remorse
carries me through
as logic sets to work
building back up for me
yet again
a new wall of defense
for myself in future
to peak out from behind...........
(Dec. 1, 1999)