being stupid is a favorite past time
I frequently dive into head first
with my vaste previous experience
you think I would have learned by now
how to accept the worst
I am a petulent child in need of a good
sound spanking
maybe for my narrow escape
it is him I should be thanking
how do you stop loving someone
even if the person in question
is perpetual scum
there must be an easy way
to put these tender thoughts of you
out of my ungated gray
I have a need to fulfill
it will be taken care of in this poem
if I have the correct skill
if I could have one wish it would be
simply to have a man be in love with me
even if it were only for a blessed week
I so desperately wish to know this man now
of which I so skepticly speak
for someone so razor witted and intimidating
you would think this nasty pot shot at my ego
wouldn't be quite so deflating
as I become mentally and emotionally stronger
my poems in verse become more mature and much
longer
to what would Freud say as to why every time
I am in an absolute rage
I vehemently take out my frustration and anger
on this pitiful murdered tree
known more commonly to us as the printed page
with my pertinent private thoughts safely secured behind the walls of indifference
to this sore souled subject I'll no longer make
reference............
(written June 16,1991)