I see you sitting there
all these months
in that jail of your life
other than the rage
what thoughts kept your heart
company
and were there no windows to your cage
windows likely drawn from the outline of
my heart
dare I even say
your beautiful light still whispers to my
skin
while behind my closed eyes' lids
your precious face still grins
I tell myself I still don't miss you
but God knows that I do
I am crushed by the ever faithful
emptiness of forever being here without you
the darkness has penetrated my every corner
in its steadily growing rush
each day seems so small
without your astonishingly large presence
in my life
I live in the confines of hopeful thoughts
that I am still ever in your heart
and that your intention has not altered
other than to become all the more determined
especially where I am concerned
that in some warped way
soothes the sore edges of my missing you
you who created this need in me so great
that only you, 'The Need Bearer' can supply
duty free and just for me.................
(July 12, 2008 358am)